unsure of what I am feeling...

I am so unsure of what i am feeling these days, is it the winter blues, homesickness, or just frustration that I am picking up the same toys and vacuuming the same carpet over and over again? Is this just the mundane same-ness of being a at home mom? Sometimes at the end of the day i think .....why is it that at 9:00 in the morning my patience seems to be all but gone.

Am i grieving that this will be my last baby, my last nursing child?

I feel like I am drowning, in laundry, making dinner, cleaning, and toys.

Is this what God has planned for my life...is this his purpose for me.....and that fact that I am asking it..should I be worried?

Am I feeling old due to an upcoming birthday?

Lord, Please help me to feel your purpose for my life, and feel like I am worthy to be called one of your children.